It wasn't when The Girl was five months old.
It was when I was two months pregnant. Barely a belly to be found and still in my regular clothes. But I was pregnant. I was a mother. I felt in in my core and I knew The Girl would be a healthy and wonderful baby.
It was the First Mother's Day that I thought about myself for once and not the loss of my own mother. It was an awakening.
I had a purpose. A reason for living. I would make the best of this day and look forward to all that motherhood had to offer. (Little did I know that motherhood also meant ppd for me)
I was ecstatic. I was growing a life and everyone now knew it. I was treated like royalty and I enjoyed every soothing second.
Looking back, I knew there was something special about The Girl. I just didn't know her yet. I felt she was meant to be and meant to be extraordinary. I was right on the money.
She has given me a joy and a reason for being beyond any words expressed. I am forever grateful that she has enabled me to have my own Mother's Day. As bittersweet as the day is to me...she makes it all worthwhile.
I'm a little retrospective these days...forgive me.
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Well, it's totally understandable that it's bittersweet. Soak up the joys from being a mother because you already know....yours is sure proud of you.
Enjoy :)
And you are a wonderful mommy.
Mother's Day is bittersweet for me as well, but for different reasons. Let's you and I cherish our little ones and believe in our hearts that being a mommy was a calling for both of us.
Now go get a latte! XOXO
There is nothing to forgive, you are entitled to reminisce the days you had with your mother!
Happy Mother's Day, Sweetie!
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No need to ask for forgiveness! Being introspective and expressing your feelings is the only way you will heal. Being a Mother is an amazing thing and when you are as wonderful at it as you are it is magical!
I remember mine... I was 8 months pg with the twins. I remember I thought this would never happen for me and now I was having TWO babies!!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
So wonderful, when we can be so grateful for the honour of raising our kids...
Happy HaPPY Mother's Day Janet!!!
YOU HOTTEST MOMMY YOU!
She's a wonderful blessing! They all are! It's amazing and wonderful!
I hope you have a great Mother's Day. Thanks for sharing that with us.
I'm sorry for your loss. Children are such blessings in our lives huh?(even the one that drives me nuts)
Beautiful post.
You inspired me.
Watch my blog for a Mr Linky in this theme.
Enjoy your Mother's Day. You're doing a great job in your mother's memory.
I absolutely echo your sentiments. They are amazingly wonderful and can give us a definite sense of purpose. Being a mom, I think, is the most important job I will ever have.
My first mother's day was actually the twins birthday. They were born on Mother's Day 2003.
I know you know this, but I'll say it anyway. The BEST way you can love your mother is to love SF as best you can.
I know what you mean. I was very depressed and angry yesterday. But I couldn't show it. It was my son's birthday, and I was very angry at my mom for leaving us and not going to be there.
I have no idea how I'm going to handle mothers day this year.
From the way you describe her here....it sounds like you were right about her being special!
I hope you have a terrific Mother's Day this year! You deserve it!
Okay, tears. Me. Sniff, sniff!
Beautiful post written by a beautiful mother!!
Happy Mom's day! (I have always thought "mother's" day was way too formal.) p.s. - can Artie come over and play???
That's incredibly beautiful. I know that my own kids are my sole reason for living. They've saved me from myself so many times without even realizing it. Children are wonderful.
Awwww, that is such a sweet and touching post. I love it!
This is beautiful. Thanks.
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