I wish I started this sooner!

I think I'm jealous.
I am reading through so many fantastic mommy blogs lately and they all have a wonderful history of their children. I was too depressed to start a blog when FA was first born. That f'in PPD can really alter your mood. (I’ll definitely get back to that another time…stick around) I hated it then and I hate it now. I think it took away alot of the fantastic things that new mommy hood is supposed to be about. Things I'll never get back. I'll never be able to start a blog about FA as an infant and her first words or first steps. That's all gone. I am glad that the PPD is gone too but damn it to hell...I think I missed out on a whole lot in the beginning because of it. I did keep a journal for Fa to have as a basic history of her first year or so. I think that makes up for lost blogtime. Yet, I am still jealous.

Yes, she is always doing new and amazing things on a daily basis. But, I can't remember half the stuff she first did as a baby. Thankfully, I do have that journal to look back to, but I think I am still pissed.

“OK, stop whining! You’re in just as good a position now. Just start from now.”

“Thank you, that’s what I’m doing.”

“Great, now zip it.”

I’m done.

Fa has a cold. She was coughing all night long. She didn’t get her first cold until her first birthday and it was a BAAAAD one. We rushed her to the hospital because it was Christmas Eve (She was born 5 days before Christmas) and the Dr’s. office was closed. She couldn’t breathe and we were panicked, first timers. It was only a cold and she gets the same sinus infections since then. They haven’t gotten any easier. I don’t think they’re supposed to. I hate it when she gets sick. It makes me so sad.

Oh well, just another day here. If you are reading this, thank you. I hope you are enjoying it. You should also see some of the other sites around here…they are wonderful… But I am still a little jealous.