I can always tell when I need to re-evaluate my space in this world.
When I need to take inventory of my head and heart and do some spring cleaning.
It's been this way for years.
And the cues have returned.
When I was 18, I listened to three particular albums back to back every single day. Yes, albums. Vinyl. CD's were too expensive for me back then. I listened to all the tracks on these albums repeatedly. I can't even really tell you why it was these three albums in particular. But it was.
Appetite for Destruction had been out for three years already and I knew every word and tune by heart. And I connected to the overall theme of 'destruction' well back then. I felt like the world was 'Out ta Get Me'
(Believe it? I was at that show! The Ritz 1988)
...and I knew the sarcasm of 'It's So Easy' was geared towards me.
And I totally felt "So Crazy' that there was no hope in sight...
Yup, G'NR ruled my days...and nights.
Then there was Bat out of Hell...(I know) It came out when I was five years old and I wanted it so badly, I begged for my Mom to buy it for me at Camelot Music Stores in the mall. God, I begged to go to that store every day! When I got older, it was like a staple in my music collection and I started listening to it again when I was struggling in High School.
I can't even tell you how many times I played 'Heaven Can Wait' over and over again.
And 'Two outta Three Ain't Bad'
You'd think I was dying.
I wasn't literally. But inside I did.
Then there was TNT. That whole album is still one of my favorites to this day. I am in awe of Tony Harnell's voice.
The music of these three albums makes the feeling I got in High School return to this day every time I hear them.
And I woke up this morning singing these songs in my head. Autopilot. Not thinking about it...just in my head. These songs.
This means, I need to clean out my mind. I need to get motivated to trash the anger and release the tension that is building inside of me. Or I will burst.
I need to reorganize my mind's bins again. They sure are a mess.
These songs reminded me of that this morning and I gotta get to work. Amazing how music can inspire you, lead you and help you feel again.
But. It Ain't So Easy. Axl, you're a smarty. Aren't you?
9 comments:
It's amazing, the power and magic of music.
Let me know if you need help reorganizing and sweeping up!
I hope your reorganization goes well.
Music moves me too. It is amazing.
hmm - well I don't need you to answer the "what's your theme song" question on my blog now, do I... :)
I have to listen to music. Every single day. Mind you, I have no musical skills whatsoever, but I use music to release the emotions (good, bad, and ugly) that I'm feeling.
I'm not putting this into words well, so I'll stop. I guess I'm just saying I get where you're coming from on this one.
Oh baby...I know EXACTLY how you feel. I'll clean if you clean.
I'm not a music person per se, but I LOVE those songs. Classics.
Best of luck with the reorganization...
Oh my gosh. That was a total blast from the past for me. Wow. I'm feeling old.
In 1988, I was six years old and I wanted nothing more than to grow up to be Kelly Bundy and marry Axl Rose. Man, was he the coolest.
Isn't the power of music just wild ? It can make you laugh, cry, happy , sad just with one song (Btw Sweet Child O'Mine was my fave).
Yes, gotta do away with the anger and tension before it eats away at you...I know easier said than done right.
I have challenges w/that myself.
I'm sending you some peaceful vibes :)
Amazing how music takes you back, makes you feel, heals.
Cool post Janet, good luck on your reorganization.
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